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Anybuddy seen this yet? I'm gonna try it.


The number I got was...7694. I'm to write that in one day. Even on my better NaNo days, I struggle to reach that high -- and I'm hardly running on the same adrenaline. Can I make it?

_{if i do will i get a prize}

This is one reason I hate evening shift. I always leave late when I have to finish up everything by myself. Took a warm shower, though, and everything's dandy. It's way late and I should be sleeping, but...oddly enough, I feel like staying up and thinking about things. I'm toying with the idea of playing Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance some more, but I don't think my eyes need that. Plus my brain'll be all frazzled and it'll interfere with my subconcious imaging.

...Oddly enough, I really don't feel like slugging it out through another strategy map. I just want some more of that deep story action. And normally, readin' a good book would be a response to that, but I want some of that deep Fire Emblem story action specifically. Too bad I don't have a Fire Emblem book. XD Maybe that's a sign that I should write one? Also, it seems they made a Fire Emblem 4 manga a long, long time ago, but naturally I haven't heard anything of it. And naturally I wouldn't be able to find a copy, considering how old it is; heck, I couldn't even find the Sakura Wars manga, and that was more recent. I doubt FE4's manga has even been translated, and I'm too scared of accidentally bumping into virus-sites to go look for scanlations. Don't know if there'd even be one. But bleh, that's another subject entirely.

This has been one of those months where my mind has just been drifting off. NaNo left me suffused with victory. And thank God I didn't pick up FE9 during NaNoMonth, or my story progress would've been consumed and sealed off. As it is, my scribbles look inane and pointless. I didn't care during NaNo, but now...

I didn't even ask for my inner editor back. :( But somehow, now that NaNo's over, I can't bear to do any hot-and-heavy writing; not anymore. I didn't want that badass writing energy to dissipate when November did, but though I tried to hold on...it just left. I was slippery-sliding on the final day, exactly the way I expected to, but I finally nailed it. I just...don't know what to do with myself now. Chris Baty said that this was the time to get some balance back into your life, so...maybe this is for the best. Maybe? I don't know. I feel kinda sad now that I'm not writing.

Three dissatisfied customers in a row. Management made sure we heard about it, and made clear that they weren't pleased with us. Decided we needed to get more of that "nighttime business" in spite of the fact that nighttime is cleanup time, and arbitrarily expanded the duties of us "young people."

Not that I mind that per se. After all, new duties means more learning, and more learning means more experience. The only thing likely to complain is my feet; I wake up with footaches now. Heels, toes, even the sides -- they're all sore.

Add all the above to the fact that I have a seven hour shift starting this afternoon, and...it's going to be a long day.


...In other news, I recently acquired FE9 when everyone on SoT is gushing about FE10. Ain't I great? XD I picked up the very last copy. Now I can see what all that Tellius action is about.

Last night's dreams were strange. I dreamt of watching a Megaman X animation on television in the style of Irregular Hunter X. It was weird as hell, and this wasn't the first time I'd seen it in the dreamscape.

It ended with Sigma bluntly asking the Repliforce General, "Does this mean we aren't gonna get married?" Implying a marriage between those two specifically.

To which the General flatly replied, "No."

I'm sore.

It's hard sometimes, y'know?

But you've got to just keep going. Life ain't known for giving second chances.

Cheesy as it sounds, you've only got one chance to do the right thing. If you miss it (or worse, blow it), it's gone.


...Pay me no mind. I'm just rambling.

Been thinkin'.

I've been goin' about this all wrong. Writing problems, personal problems, all of it. Especially the former. I've been caught in the same loop for years, and I can't help but wonder if the enemy's been my thought processes. Having all the wrong priorities, expecting too much of fledgling work...

I'm going to go into my workshop and try something different.

Man...

I can be such a stupid sometimes.

*insert wild, high-pitched giggle of the insane.*

I'm moody. I'm angry. I'm giggly. I'm unhappy. I'm all sorts of things.

...I'd better not run into anyone today. I don't want to inflict anything on them.

See that picture? That's how I feel right now. I kid you not.

My mouth is full of a nasty flavor. It stinks of disease.

I wanna taste food again...

For the first time in two days. I can't even think straight.

No :(